dallas green is not that attractive, but his voice is so beautiful its painful to listen to for extended periods of time. the french horn in your ex lover is dead (stars) is slowly crushing my soul with its amazingness. pretty much brass and guitars is an excellent combo-look at ska, look at chicago (25 or 6 to 4 anyone?) and did you ever notice that the lead singer in sloan looks like john heder/napoleon dynamite-at least his glasses

lasts night show started out as a sketch-tastic event but turned into some real fun. The first band-woah can you say tightest pants on a man ever?! i think they were painted on, or hes gonna need a heck of a shoe horn to get them off. haha, well they were pretty good-a little bit nirvana, a little bit strokes, a little bit i can't think of a random indie band (haha they would probably list something obscure and the comparison would be lost on my poor mainstream ears). the basement (yes the basement-i told you it was sketch) was hot and crowded so jer, stace and i opted to skip the 3 dollar beer and homemade pizza they were selling and went to woodys on elgin and had a pint (most of one in my case-i was starting to get funny so i let jer finish it) and some really tasty wings (possibly tasting better because of the beer? when i drink i get really hungry-i think that if i ever got high i would think i was starving to death). we got back in time to hear the 2nd last band which to me sounded like simple plan with swear words but they played a fun cover of blink 182's damnit. then finally the raison d'etre-forever means never+ an appearance by the feedback fairy. Last time i saw FMN cara was getting electrocuted by the mic and last night andrew (bassist/back up vocal) said something about the mixer breaking?? it was so cute so see mel and dan sing along (i did when i could) and cara dedicated a song to mels little bro-pretty sweet. we had to leave at 11, but i made everyone stay until FMN played pants on fire. and on the way out i heard a new song which i dont know the name of but i love (she played it the last few shows i saw)  my dad picked me up at le jers and i crashed at about 1 am

since i had such a late night out, i was wiped today. all the kids did was read, play on the comp, game cube, french tv and workbooks. oh, and kieran gave bennett a bloody lip.

you should all go see the new pirates movie. its pretty much amazing.

i have a big mouth

that is all

guys mumbling= annoying

sorry, i had to get that out of my system right away. anyway, so tonight was the core prayer thing, that has been a stone in my stomach all week, i was seriously dreading it. and today i was just so tired and i really didnt want to go at all, but jordon (God bless him) drove me so i conceded. it was actually really good. It was about conflict resolution (which i am a bit of a pro at-im not being arrogant am i? please forgive me) and i had some really productive silent prayer time with the Lord and did some prayer journaling. i used to hate it, and now i need it, alot. oh geeze, if jeremy knew that i think he would laugh so hard. anyway, so yeah then le fleck et moi went for starbucks (he paid so doubley good) and had some quality hang out time and got to know each other. its so funny cause i totally know and relate to what hes going through and where he's at and such. then adam scared the pants off me...wheee (a little too much sugar in my vanilla bean frap). 

so rachid et moi are co leading the lifenight, although i am not officially on core (or it seems anywhere near being there because of the insaness of mine. jordons, jeremy and erins schedules!!) haha, so yeah. were going to play some games and sports depending on the amount of people and then rachid will be talking to us about love and then some p&w led by andre. so i had to call him and make sure he could stay which lead to an hour long conversation about stuff, it was sweet. but then mosquitoes were eating me and then i ran up here to type it all down. so my day was suprisingly good. God just took everything and made it his and i am so grateful.

so apparently daly didn't get his visa and now i am all sad, but he told me that was good news for me because he wouldnt be around to bother me. i am just so sick of boys who put themselves down for attention. so daly wont be around anymore apparently so i invited him to our benefit concert on friday and he said he would go if i was his date to the lifeteen dance. good thing this was on msn, cause i was soooo embarassed to tell him no. there is many a reason for me to say no, but esp the fact that he puts himself down. i just cant tolerate that at all. and because i dont like him, and i dont want him to get the wrong idea by just not initiating any conversations with him (the one time i do, he asks me out again). so i havent talked to daly in a few weeks and andre asks me if he got his visa and i got all flustered and rambly because i didnt know and cause the question actually upset me. ugh ugh ugh. i am so annoyed and annoyed and kind of cranky and tired.  and annoyed with the whole situation. did i mention that i was annoyed?

so, as guilty as i feel about saying this, i hope that Daley doesnt get his visa. I really cant wait until he goes back to india...ok so i dont feel that guilty. he just...ugh...annoys me? thats not strong enough. just kind of makes me want to consider the religious life (j/k). clare was right though, daley is not in a position to be in a relationship right now. He was discerning the priesthood and less then a month later he wants to date me. thats a complete turn around. im glad he didnt stay last night. i just want to kick him sometimes. really hard. just knock some sense into him because what he says is just, maddening.

Life has been pretty good. I am looking forward to core training with jeremy and jordon. oh man, i really missed jordon and i didnt realize it until he was back, and he hit amandas car!! God really has a special place in Annunciation's youth ministry.

i seriously have begun looking into different religious orders...that means i spend hours reading about different orders online and calling it "research" and a reason not to leave my room. So far i've learned about the carmelites, carthusians, poor clares and the daughters of st paul. i've decided that i dont think im being called to a contemplative life (bye bye carthusians!!) but my devotion to st clare has me keenly interested in the poor clares. but the daughters of st paul have it all. if God is calling me to a religious vocation, i hope its with the daughters of st paul. (http://www.daughtersofstpaul.com) They spread the Gospel through media and communication AND they're not cloistered. cloistered life does not appeal to me at all (my mom would disagree as i spend all of my time in my room).

anyway, there is a bagel calling my name 

i am so bored. i am in a desert of boredness. i am slowly dying of the lack of activity. seriously this is day 3 of my pyjamas. i need to get out of here

have you ever woken up from a dream with the feeling of just having been intimite with someone? i feel warm and slightly put off. maybe that is why we keep each other at arms length? Being that close hurts

1. FIRST NAME? Danielle
2. WERE YOU NAMED AFTER SOMEONE? my dad
3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? last sunday
5. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? i dont think it can be called handwriting
6. WHAT IS YOU FAVORITE LUNCHMEAT? roast beef
7. KIDS? in a public lifelong commited relationship....ie: marriage
8. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? I would be too cool to be friends with anyone
9. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? yes?
10. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? i try not to, but sometimes
11. DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? *looks* yup all present and accounted for
12. WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? i would say yes, and then chicken out in the end
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? cheerios, classic
14. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? No, and this causes me to take hours to put them back on
15. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? what kind of strong? i am quite flabby shabby, but i think i have a strong personality
16. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR? maybe neapoliton
17. SHOE SIZE? 7/8 (in europe i am a size 38!)
18. RED OR PINK? red
19. WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? i am imperfect
20. WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? Tim! Jan Philip back in the homeland
21. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? its up to them
22. WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES YOU ARE WEARING? Beige linen pants and barefeet
23. LAST THING YOU ATE? yellow (lemon) lollypop
24. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? Daily Breakfast
25. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? black because its the most popular
26. FAVORITE SMELL? clean clothes
27. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Daley
28. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO? their confidence (enough but not arrogant)
29. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON TAGGED YOU? I am a copier of lindsay
30. FAVORITE DRINK? iced tea, or perrier
31. FAVORITE SPORT? i like to watch hockey, play frisbee, soccer, football (thanks mad!), rugby
33. EYE COLOR? bluish grey, depends on the day
34. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? I wish
35. FAVORITE FOOD? toast with butter
36. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDING? Happy endings
38. WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? beigy,brown
40. HUGS OR KISSES? Both. the ones with white chocolate with swirls of milk chocolate
41. FAVORITE DESSERT? pates de soeurs
42. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Whoever's bored (agreeing with linds)
43. LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Whoever's busy.
44. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? Gift and Mystery by Pope John Paul II
45. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD?i dont have a mouse pad (laptop)
46. WHAT DID YOU WATCH LAST NIGHT ON TV? medium
47. FAVORITE SOUNDS? Mass, insence burner clanking, benediction
48. ROLLING STONE OR BEATLES? Beatles all the way
49. THE FURTHEST YOU'VE BEEN FROM HOME? Germany
50. DO YOU HAVE A SPECIAL TALENT? I can touch my tounge to my nose
51. WHEN AND WHERE WERE YOU BORN? May 25, 1987 at the Ajax Pickering General Hospital

i only think 2 people read this journal so i will not bother tagging anyone else

The game: once tagged, you must write 6 weird things/habits about yourself, and then tag 6 more people. Those 6 people must write about 6 weird things/habits in a blog about themselves, and tag 6 more people. Tell the people they have been tagged.

1. i subscribe to 19 podcasts and listen to them all on a regular basis

2. i only like to shower everyother day at the most. i'm not dirty or anything but i am a pretty clean person, that is my hair isnt overly oily, only when i use head and shoulders since i have a dry scalp it makes my hair a bit greasy with they extra moisture.

3. ive severly burned myself 4 times while baking, and set the stove on fire twice. i am not allowed to use the stove unsupervised anymore because of that.

4. i spend about 15 hours a week doing youth ministry to gr 7&8's and high school teens

5. i am obsessed with all things german including but not limited to: haribo gummy bears, carbonated water and appleshaft, the german language, german boys, german dance moves and folk songs (a kiki kiki komba anyone?) BROT, and of course beer

6. my favorite mystery of the rosary is the transfiguration "lets make tents!"

i havent been able to fall asleep all night. i am so tired now *yawn* writing this is making me sleepy...oh good, as long as i wake up for our core meeting.

Your Scent is Strawberry

Fun, flirty, and fresh. You're a complete sweetheart that makes everyone smile!

Dear Erin,
I was on the bus today on my way to my english exam and casimir pulski day came on and in the first line sufjan sings about his friend getting caner,and i remembered that you died today. i still think about you alot,even though i didnt know you. i know pat,ok, hes pretty quiet, but i would like to hang out with him more. your little brother is going to stubenville,pray for him, i will too. i looked at your guestbook and it reminded me of your wake. pat was going to drive liana and shawn home but he was with clare and she was telling me the funniest story about recording and her driving pats car to get pastilles for pats throat. i really dont remember the story that well, but i remember the moment and being in the funeral home, and the carpet and the heat. that whole night was so funny and i felt wierd having fun at a wake. anyway, its really late,but i just waned to say that you touched alot of people, and you inspire me so much still!

God bless,
Danielle
ps: your grandpa cracks me up